Breakfast With God

When I started Breakfast With God, my number one aim was to be as honest and open about my walk with God with you. Selling any false ideas of perfection was never part of the plan. In my not-so-long years as a Christian, one thing I’ve always believed is that it’s (very) okay to struggle. And over the past week, I’ve really struggled with God. I went from battling with feelings of emptiness and a general lack of enthusiasm, to dealing with difficult news and not being able to even speak to God. I distinctly remember saying to Him while I was driving home on Thursday, “I really can’t be around you right now.” It’s the first time in a long time that I literally felt separated from God. You see, there are times in all our lives when   we are going to feel lost, confused, abandoned, rejected, betrayed, used and misunderstood – Christian or not-really-sure-about-this-Jesus-thing. It’s part of the journey. In these times, I strongly believe that, hands down,  the most useless thing

(Disclaimer: I write for a living. Just so all the references to headlines and articles make sense. As you were!) This week, I’ve been struggling a little bit with feelings of unfulfillment. I’ve been feeling as though I haven’t been (as) productive (as I’d like) with work. I feel like I always have something I need to get done. I feel overwhelmed by the tiniest things, like my inability to write a totally-out-of-this-world, amazing headline. And because I like to analyse things, I concluded it was Post-Holiday Depression (that is a real thing; google it!), and I would snap out of it and get with the program after a couple of days spent in traffic and a dash of positive thinking. Well, that didn’t happen. As I speak (write), I’m still feeling somewhat unfulfilled. But sometime mid-week (it’s all been a blur, people), the Holy Spirit gently whispered to me, only seconds after I woke up in the morning, that I should stop looking for fulfillment in things on this Earth. Fulfillm