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Wherever You are is where I want to be

For a long time, I struggled with feelings of contentment; with where I physically was, what I was doing, what I had and didn’t have… the list goes on. I wasn’t truly happy for most of my late teen years because I always felt like I lacked one thing or another. I believed if I was with my family, instead of on my own in another country, I would be happy. If I were more ‘spiritual’, I would have a deeper relationship with God. If like my brother and sister, I met The One at 17 years old, then my joy would be complete.

It’s a lie the devil tried to sell me, and one he will try and sell to you too. True contentment cannot come from things or people around you; it can only come from being satisfied in, and with, God – and God alone. Not God and a great big bank account, or God and a wonderful family background, or God and world-class education – God alone. Seeking satisfaction from a relationship, money, a great career or being famous will only leave you frustrated, because none of those things are designed to fill you up. We all have a hole in our lives that only God can fill!

A few months ago, I had to make a fairly large decision to either stay where I was or move back home, and I begged God for direction almost on the daily because I lived in fear of making the wrong choice. What actually happened in this process was quite interesting; I started to feel like it didn’t matter where/what God chose, or if there was even a Plan C I hadn’t thought of! I just knew that I only wanted to be where God was. It didn’t matter as much whether that was home or abroad; all that mattered was that He and I were together. My contentment was no longer found in my geographical location, but my position in God.


There is no freedom like that which comes with this realisation. You are no longer bound by the desire to acquire things or attract love, or bound by the fear of losing what you already have because you know that although those things are nice, your happiness isn’t tied to them. If you are not happy and content where you are and with what you have now, you won’t be when you reach wherever you think your Promise Land is – you’ll just want more and more when you get there. And who wants to live like that? 

 True joy is only found in God.


Kunmi x

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