I'm a champion at beating myself up. I don't need other people to highlight my shortcomings; they are glaring to me, and over-exaggerated in my mind.
I'm a lot better now, though, I have to admit. And that's because of a beautiful God who doesn't condemn me the way I do myself; who isn't shocked at or overwhelmed by my personal failures; who doesn't remind me of every thing I'm not doing right.
Yet still, lately I've been feeling like an extra crappy Christian. I don't spend as much time absorbing the Bible the way I'd love to. I haven't been spending enough quiet time with God, just talking or waiting or listening. And I've allowed other things and people to take centre stage, in all honesty (much as it hurts me to admit it).
Worse, I've whineeed about it for WAY too long. Because, all the while, I've had the power - with God's help and grace - to do something about everything I was unhappy with. And you have the power too.
A great relationship with God isn't going to fall in your (or my) lap. It requires devotion, careful attention, quality time, putting other things on the back burner, saying 'no' to binge watching your favourite series or a night out with friends sometimes, doing things that push you out of your comfort zone (hello, speaking in tongues!), and actually sometimes NOT doing what you want to do because God is really (more) important to you.
I know. It's serious business. But you have to make a conscious effort - every day - to make God your Best Bud. And that doesn't come by chance. Your relationship requires time, effort and commitment.
But the good news is you totally have it in you to do all of that. Plus, God is always, always willing and ready to help you with whatever you're struggling with - YEAH, even when it has to do with Him!
Love,
Kunmi x
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